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Istuin kylm\u00e4ll\u00e4 keinonahalla verhoillulla tuolilla, sormeni puristaen k\u00e4silaukkuni reunaa kuin se olisi viimeinen kiinte\u00e4 esine huoneessa. Toimiston valkoiset sein\u00e4t tuntuivat rauhallisilta, liian rauhallisilta, ja kellon tikityksen v\u00e4linen hiljaisuus oli raskasta. Ulos tulleet sanat eiv\u00e4t olleet kovia tai dramaattisia. Ne lausuttiin rauhallisesti, asiantuntevasti, melkein pehme\u00e4sti. Ja silti aalto pyyhk\u00e4isi l\u00e4pi kehoni, joka muutti kaiken.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Hengetykseni pys\u00e4htyi johonkin sis\u00e4\u00e4n- ja uloshengityksen v\u00e4lille. Ei niin, ett\u00e4 se olisi kadonnut, vaan pikemminkin se hiljeni, riitt\u00e4m\u00e4tt\u00f6m\u00e4ksi. \u00c4\u00e4net sulautuivat yhdeksi syv\u00e4ksi huminaksi, aivan kuin seisoisi liian l\u00e4hell\u00e4 merta. Lattia tuntui kauempana kuin hetki sitten, ja ymp\u00e4r\u00f6iv\u00e4 maailma menetti ter\u00e4v\u00e4t \u00e4\u00e4riviivat. Asiat olivat siell\u00e4, tiesin, mutta ne tuntuivat tulevan luokseni paksun sumun l\u00e4pi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sill\u00e4 hetkell\u00e4 tajusin, kuinka hauras varmuus on. Muutama minuutti sitten olin miettinyt pieni\u00e4 asioita \u2013 mit\u00e4 ostaisin kotimatkalla, kenelle soittaisin illalla. Nyt ajatukseni hajosivat palasiksi, jotka eiv\u00e4t yhdistyneet. Aika venyi ja sitten kutistui taas, menett\u00e4en s\u00e4\u00e4nn\u00f6llisyyteni, johon olin tottunut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hengitin syv\u00e4\u00e4n henke\u00e4, tai ainakin yritin. Nojasin taaksep\u00e4in tuolissani ja suljin silm\u00e4ni. Tunsin oman syd\u00e4meni sykkeen, liian kovan, liian l\u00e4hell\u00e4. Siit\u00e4 oli tullut ainoa luotettava rytmi hiljaisessa huoneessa. Tajusin, ettei vastauksille tai p\u00e4\u00e4t\u00f6ksille ollut en\u00e4\u00e4 tilaa. Halusin vain pysy\u00e4 l\u00e4sn\u00e4, kest\u00e4\u00e4 hetken, joka oli l\u00f6yt\u00e4nyt minut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kun avasin silm\u00e4ni uudelleen, maailma palasi hitaasti tasapainoon. V\u00e4rit alkoivat saada kiinte\u00e4mpi\u00e4, \u00e4\u00e4net erkanivat toisistaan. Kuulin l\u00e4\u00e4k\u00e4rin sanat selke\u00e4mmin, vaikka niiden merkitys kosketti minua edelleen vain varovasti, ik\u00e4\u00e4n kuin h\u00e4n olisi tiennyt, ett\u00e4 tarvitsin aikaa. Ny\u00f6kk\u00e4sin, ehk\u00e4 enemm\u00e4n itselleni kuin kenellek\u00e4\u00e4n muulle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00e4velin ulos vastaanotosta hitaammin kuin olin tullut. Jokainen askel oli harkittu, varovainen, mutta vakaa. Se hetki, kun maailma kallistui, j\u00e4tti minuun j\u00e4ljen. Se muistutti minua siit\u00e4, ett\u00e4 joskus el\u00e4m\u00e4 pys\u00e4ytt\u00e4\u00e4 meid\u00e4t varoittamatta, vie hengityksemme \u2013 ei murtaakseen meit\u00e4, vaan pakottaakseen meid\u00e4t hengitt\u00e4m\u00e4\u00e4n uudelleen eri tavalla. Ja ehk\u00e4 hieman syvemm\u00e4lle.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Istuin kylm\u00e4ll\u00e4 keinonahalla verhoillulla tuolilla, sormeni puristaen k\u00e4silaukkuni reunaa kuin se olisi viimeinen kiinte\u00e4 esine huoneessa. 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