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En koskaan ajatellut, ett\u00e4 edes hengitt\u00e4mist\u00e4 voisi pel\u00e4t\u00e4. Ett\u00e4 tulisi aika, jolloin jokainen hengenveto kuulostaisi liian kovalta ja jokainen uloshengitys tuntuisi uhkalta. Silti seisoin siin\u00e4, painautuneena kylm\u00e4\u00e4 sein\u00e4\u00e4 vasten, pid\u00e4tt\u00e4en hengityst\u00e4ni niin pinnallisesti, ett\u00e4 rintakeh\u00e4ni tuskin liikkui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Se oli tavallinen ilta, ainakin aluksi. K\u00e4velin t\u00f6ist\u00e4 kotiin samalla tavalla kuin aina ennenkin, p\u00e4\u00e4 t\u00e4ynn\u00e4 ajatuksia ja jalkani v\u00e4syneet. Katu oli melkein tyhj\u00e4, lukuun ottamatta lamppujen heitt\u00e4mi\u00e4 pitki\u00e4 varjoja ja kaukana haukkuvaa koiraa. Tuntui kuin mik\u00e4\u00e4n ei voisi h\u00e4irit\u00e4 rauhaa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sitten kuulin askelia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aluksi luulin vain vitsailevani. Askelia kuulee kaikkialla. Mutta n\u00e4m\u00e4 toistuivat t\u00e4sm\u00e4lleen minun tahdissani. Kun hidastin vauhtia, nekin hidastuivat. Kun pys\u00e4hdyin, ne hiljeniv\u00e4t hetkeksi. Sill\u00e4 hetkell\u00e4 kylm\u00e4t v\u00e4reet kulkivat selk\u00e4piit\u00e4ni pitkin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00e4\u00e4nnyin sivukujalle varmistaakseni, ett\u00e4 pelk\u00e4sin turhaan. Syd\u00e4meni jyskytti kurkussani. Askelia seurasivat minua.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Piilouduin roskiksen taakse ja painauduin sein\u00e4\u00e4 vasten. Pimeys oli sakea ja kosteuden haju leijui sieraimissani. Ja sitten tajusin, ett\u00e4 hengitin liian nopeasti. Ett\u00e4 hengitykseni oli kovempi kuin koko kaupungin \u00e4\u00e4ni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pid\u00e4tin hengityst\u00e4ni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ei aivan. Juuri sen verran, ett\u00e4 minut kuultiin. Niin pinnallinen, ett\u00e4 rintani tuskin liikkui. Jokainen sekunti venyi ikuisuuteen. Korvani soivat, jalkani t\u00e4risiv\u00e4t ja kehoni aneli ilmaa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Askeleet l\u00e4hestyiv\u00e4t. N\u00e4in siluetin pys\u00e4htyv\u00e4n vain muutaman metrin p\u00e4\u00e4h\u00e4n. Joku selvitti kurkkunsa. \u00c4\u00e4ness\u00e4 oli jotain tavallista ja pelottavaa. Mietin, kuulisiko h\u00e4n syd\u00e4meni sykkeen. Aistisiko h\u00e4n l\u00e4sn\u00e4oloni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kymmeni\u00e4 ajatuksia risteili p\u00e4\u00e4ss\u00e4ni. Mit\u00e4 tekisin, jos h\u00e4n l\u00f6yt\u00e4isi minut? Juoksinko? Huutaisinko? Vai j\u00e4hmetyisink\u00f6 ja toivoisin, ettei h\u00e4n huomaisi minua? Aika oli menett\u00e4nyt kaiken merkityksens\u00e4. Olin vain min\u00e4, pimeys ja pid\u00e4tetty hengitykseni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sitten siluetti liikkui. Askeleet v\u00e4istyiv\u00e4t hitaasti, niiden \u00e4\u00e4ni liukui y\u00f6n hiljaisuuteen. En uskaltanut pitk\u00e4\u00e4n aikaan hengitt\u00e4\u00e4 kunnolla. Kun vihdoin tein niin, ilma sy\u00f6ksyi keuhkoihini kuin tuli, ja minun piti peitt\u00e4\u00e4 suuni est\u00e4\u00e4kseni itse\u00e4ni itkem\u00e4st\u00e4 \u00e4\u00e4nekk\u00e4\u00e4sti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kesti useita minuutteja ennen kuin tulin piilostani. Jalkani tuntuivat kumilta, k\u00e4teni t\u00e4risiv\u00e4t. Maailma tuntui yht\u00e4kki\u00e4 erilaiselta \u2013 samat talot, samat kadut, mutta turvallisuuden tunne oli poissa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sin\u00e4 iltana ymm\u00e4rsin, kuinka hauras raja rauhan ja pelon v\u00e4lill\u00e4 on. Kuinka v\u00e4h\u00e4n tarvitaan, jotta ihminen tuntee itsens\u00e4 avuttomaksi. Ja my\u00f6s kuinka joskus pienimm\u00e4tkin asiat voivat pelastaa meid\u00e4t. Kuten hiljainen, tuskin havaittava lasku\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"En koskaan ajatellut, ett\u00e4 edes hengitt\u00e4mist\u00e4 voisi pel\u00e4t\u00e4. Ett\u00e4 tulisi aika, jolloin jokainen hengenveto kuulostaisi liian kovalta ja jokainen uloshengitys tuntuisi uhkalta. 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