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Se oli tavallinen p\u00e4iv\u00e4, ja silti se tuntui erilaiselta. Kahvi oli j\u00e4\u00e4htynyt ennen kuin tajusin, etten ollut edes koskenut siihen. Kello tikitti armottoman tarkasti muistuttaen minua siit\u00e4, ettei aika pys\u00e4hdy vain siksi, ett\u00e4 haluan sen pys\u00e4htyv\u00e4n. Menneisyyden muistot vuorottelivat tulevaisuuden n\u00e4kyjen kanssa p\u00e4\u00e4ss\u00e4ni, ja minusta tuntui kuin seisoisin sillalla kahden rannan v\u00e4lill\u00e4, tiet\u00e4m\u00e4tt\u00e4 kummalle puolelle nojata.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Muistin lapsuuteni, ajan, jolloin kysymykset olivat yksinkertaisia \u200b\u200bja vastaukset viel\u00e4 yksinkertaisempia. Silloin uskoin, ett\u00e4 maailma toimi selkeiden s\u00e4\u00e4nt\u00f6jen mukaan ja ett\u00e4 jos yritt\u00e4isin, kaikki j\u00e4rjestyisi. Mutta nyt en ollut varma mist\u00e4\u00e4n. Jokainen p\u00e4\u00e4t\u00f6s tuntui vaikeammalta kuin edellinen, jokainen hiljaisuus \u00e4\u00e4nekk\u00e4\u00e4mpi kuin sanat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Huoneen laskeutui hiljaisuus, joka ei ollut rauhoittava, vaan pikemminkin levoton. Sellainen hiljaisuus, jossa voi kuulla oman hengityksens\u00e4 ja tuntea syd\u00e4mens\u00e4 ly\u00f6v\u00e4n liian nopeasti. Mietin, tarkoittiko rohkeus eteenp\u00e4in menemist\u00e4 ilman varmuutta vai pys\u00e4htymist\u00e4 ja pelkonsa my\u00f6nt\u00e4mist\u00e4. Ehk\u00e4 se oli molempien yhdistelm\u00e4, ehk\u00e4 rohkeus oli vain kyky\u00e4 olla rehellinen itselleen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ulkona tihkusadetta. Sadepisarat rummuttivat ikkunalaudalla luoden ep\u00e4s\u00e4\u00e4nn\u00f6llisen rytmin, joka muistutti minua siit\u00e4, ett\u00e4 jopa kaaoksessa voi olla j\u00e4rjestyksens\u00e4. L\u00f6ysin oudon lohdun tuosta \u00e4\u00e4nest\u00e4. Tajusin, etten ollut yksin hapuilemassa, etsim\u00e4ss\u00e4 suuntaa. Kaikki ep\u00e4ilev\u00e4t joskus, kaikki kysyv\u00e4t joskus kysymyksi\u00e4, vaikka he pelk\u00e4\u00e4v\u00e4tkin vastausta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Otin syv\u00e4\u00e4n henke\u00e4 ja annoin itselleni luvan kysy\u00e4 kysymyksen uudelleen, t\u00e4ll\u00e4 kertaa hiljaa, vain itselleni. Se ei ollut en\u00e4\u00e4 niin pelottavaa. Sen sijaan se her\u00e4tti minussa uteliaisuuden. Ent\u00e4 jos muutos ei olekaan loppu, vaan alku? Ent\u00e4 jos ep\u00e4varmuus avaa ovia, joita en olisi muuten koskaan n\u00e4hnyt?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sill\u00e4 hetkell\u00e4 ymm\u00e4rsin, etten tarvinnut suunnitella kaikkea etuk\u00e4teen. Minun tarvitsi vain ottaa ensimm\u00e4inen askel, vaikka se olisi pieni ja ep\u00e4varma. Syd\u00e4meni rentoutui hitaasti ja tunsin rauhan palaavan minuun. Ei siksi, ett\u00e4 olin l\u00f6yt\u00e4nyt kaikki vastaukset, vaan koska en en\u00e4\u00e4 pel\u00e4nnyt kysy\u00e4.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Se oli tavallinen p\u00e4iv\u00e4, ja silti se tuntui erilaiselta. Kahvi oli j\u00e4\u00e4htynyt ennen kuin tajusin, etten ollut edes koskenut siihen. 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